Alright, so ... I finally opened up to my friends and told them I'm bi sexual. I've known it for a while now, but I was afraid they wouldn't accept me or understand, but they didn't even care, I'm so happy! They took it really well and everything. I don't think people really understands that the pressure of not really being out of the closet is still a hard thing.
Because you don't really know if people are gonna accept it or not or look at you the same way or start asking lotsa stupid questions around it.

Anyway, OMG! RDIUCHFJHTNN...I wish my dear Georg was here. Don't come here and say "You are such a stupid fan girl, just stop thinking about him ^^ It's not like you can ever have him". Then I'm gonna have a new break down.
It's really hard loving someone you wish with you heart, body and soul that you could have, but he don't even know I excist! ='( I feel so stupid..
I love him so much I would do just about everything to have him beside me, holding my hand.
Sometimes I look out the window at night and I wish and think that maybe he's looking up at the sky too somewhere.
Oh, my dear Georg, why can't you be here with me? BAH! ='(

I had another break down last night. It's the first time I've had a breakdown because of Georg.
I hate it. It freaking scares the shit out of me when it happens! Because when I cry so hard I can't breath. And then I freak out because I can't breath. And since I was home alone no one could stroke my back until I calmed down...


ahaha, I'm so stupid x)

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